Releasing...

 

I am releasing...releasing my inner conflicts to the universe...rising above...I am learning that I have often tried to control myself ...my emotions...my reactions and really what I am finding is that I can only control my attitude and my behavior ...So I am releasing the negative feelings ...

I remember when my good husband passed...all I wanted to do was be surrounded by his things...I would wear one of his t-shirts to bed at night...sleep on his side of the bed...breathe in the smell of his clothing...hold his picture close to my heart...

Today...after over 5 years since my husband passed I no longer do those things...for I feel him with me almost every day. I see his smile in the smallest of things and know his love...

I remember when I was told that my relationship with my son and his family had come to an end...I took all the things that they had given me and packed them away...I took pictures and placed them in boxes along with letters and cards...

Today...was the first day in almost a year and a half that I let myself open that box...today I revisited the moments of memories...and I placed a picture of my son and me back on my desk and I look up at it now and smile...

I am releasing...I am healing...

I love and I believe I am loved...