Dear Patricia...
Over the years you have silenced your self. There have been times when you could not even figure out where all the anger was coming from...other times you knew but could not find a way to deal or heal your self.
Most of the time you believed the lies....you felt unloved...he broke your heart...he betrayed you...others did the same...you did not feel good enough...you built large walls around yourself...you felt out of control...you yelled...you screamed...you went a little crazy...you felt tired and defeated...you felt you had no right to be truly happy....you complained...you hid...you were disloyal...you cried...you lied...you were so afraid...nothing mattered...you wondered if you ever really exposed yourself if anyone would really like you...you repeated patterns that were destructive...you stomped your feet and pulled your hair...you felt like a victim...you felt abandoned...you felt lost...you drank too much...you could not see the good...you felt unworthy...unattractive...dirty...bad...not smart enough...your heart ached all the time...you fell into deep depression...you were lonely...you were lost...you started things but never finished things...nothing was ever quite right...
I know...I truly do know that all these things were because you were grieving...you were missing your baby...you longed for him...your heart ached for him...
All these things were bricks that you used to put up a wall so that you stayed trapped in all the guilt...
I am here to tell you the truth...
YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH! (You always have been) You are strong and worthy...
YOU ARE LOVED!
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