Not addressing this letter seemed to be the only thing to do...
Because one sounds "nasty" when one is trying to defend ones self...and the words that were falling out of my head were negative and did not sound at all like me...So I went within to sort things out...
And then I received an e mail from my son...to say I was a bit fearful about opening it would be an understatement...
Mom:
I have been in the hospital for depression, (a first time for that). Would you please make things right with my wife.
My heart broke for so many reasons....suffering from depression myself I know that he must of swirled down into a dark hole to have to go into the hospital...and yet I still had no idea what sent him there or why...I could only assume that it was the conflict he was feeling between the "choice" that he felt he had to make concerning choosing between his wife and his Mother...but that was only an assumption on my part...
Then my head of course went to "would you please make things right with my wife"...according to the letter she wrote me...My son had "read, approves of, is aware of, is in agreement with everything mentioned"...
If all that was true how could he not see that she had closed every door...every window...that there was no coming back from this situation. I either had to return items, (that I did not take so there was nothing to return) in order to move forward or I would not be allowed to...and I was not allowed to reply with an email...
I sent off an e mail in response that simply read "I am so sorry"...
My head was reeling...my heart was breaking for my son and his family...and myself and my family here...I decided that I would send a letter off to my son at work...wanting him to read it before it might be intercepted...or disregarded...and I would send back the only thing that I did have...a plane ticket to visit in May..
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