From my heart...

Dear Son...

We have gone a long way in a different direction from our first phone call...and my heart grieves about that...I certainly never meant for anyone to feel hurt in anyway...or to disrupt...confuse...or make demands on you or your family.

My heart does not want anyone to hurt...including myself.

I thank you for opening your heart to me...I thank you for sharing your love with me...I thank you for embracing me as your Mom regardless of time and space.

I am enclosing a response to the email that your wife answered for you...she asked that I not respond to it with an e mail...I have chosen to send all of this to you at work, so like the letters I received in December you will be able to read this first.

I read a short story once by Ernest Hemingway, "The Capital of the World". In it he tells about a Spanish Father who wants to reconcile with his son who ran away to Madrid. To find the boy he took out an ad in the newspaper: "Paco, meet me at the hotel at noon on Tuesday. All is forgiven. Love, Papa".

Paco is a very common Spanish name and when the Father goes to the hotel he finds 800 young men named Paco waiting for their Fathers.

What drew them to the hotel? As Hemingway tells it...it was the words. "All is forgiven". The Father did not say..."All will be forgiven IF you do this or that" ... he did not say..."All will be forgiven WHEN you do such and such....He simply says "All is forgiven" with no strings attached.

That is my hope...that one day all will be forgiven in the name of love.

You are a part of me...A part of my heart that was finally unlocked and is beginning to heal...Please know that regardless of time my heart is always open to you...we are no longer a mystery to each other...we have met....we have been found.

I am not leaving you....for you are always with me...just as you always have been. You are my son and time and space can never change that...you can always make the choice to contact me for I will always be here for you.

Remember that you are So Loved...

PS:
I am sorry to see that the kids Birthday checks have not been cashed.
Enclosed you will find a copy of the airline ticket information...It is the only thing that I do have.

(And then I responded to the email that his wife sent...)